I feel alone in this fight! I'm tired of talking to people about my pain and my struggle and even when they listen I still feel alone in this fight. I'm tired of feeling like a burden to the one person who is physically here with me. I'm tired of even him not truly understanding what I'm going through. I'm tired of feeling alone while not being alone. I'm tired of people trying to make lite of the heaviness that sits on me everyday. Yes, I'm already very aware that I'm not alone because God is with me always. I need God to send me the kind of help I truly need. I need hugs, compassion, genuine aid, and ample funds for necessary aids, or just simply automatic miraculous healing. Maybe I'm asking for too much. Maybe God feels like the wrongs I've done calls for my struggles. I don't know what to think except it's so hard and lonely living this way. I'm writing this as if it will telepathically enter someone's mind and they will finally understand my struggle but realistically it's pointless and I'm tired!!!